toodldo_4julie: Feel more sick every day.

---

What. The. Fuck.



Wake up every morning with this ball of dread in my stomach and have to pull up Heather Cox Richardson's update from the night before to see what disaster(s) I missed.



Then I just feel worse.



I purged a ton of old coworkers from Facebook. I just don't want to see the far right's opinion piece whacko shit anymore.



I thought it was bad last time.



It's worse, now.



Last time I went to march in DC for that massive Women's March on his first inauguration. I went to local rallies while he was in office. Wrote and called my reps weekly.



This time around I just feel exhausted. How can there be so much willful ignorance and hate in our world?



What kind of planet will be left for my children?



My friends' children? My nieces and nephews?



The group of friends I was making covers with sort of drifted apart and got busy with life. I miss it even though it would be hard to find time at home by myself to record vocals.



Aside from work&family there isn't much to pull my mind away from all the crazy shit going on.



I know it's been a while. Just needed to... vent.



Oh, and Steve, if you're still around. I listened to your more recent album on Spotify. Good stuff.



Tired: re: bone

toodldo_4julie:

---

I have an overwhelming feeling of existential dread that just continues to build, day by day. News gives me anxiety and I find myself almost sick over how thoughtless and just incredibly selfish the general population seems to be. At least online. Facts do not seem to hold value anymore.



About the only thing keeping my head above water is that I have only about a year left to complete my master's degree and I've found some distraction.. or maybe escapism is better... in the form of online karaoke of all things. Also I have participated in an international group of talented folks who do covers (lately of Ghost although there are some talks of other bands and maybe even Bohemian Rhapsody). Mostly I pick out and sing the harmonies but for one 14 minute acoustic medley I did melody and harmony which was pretty amazing and a nice reprieve from real life.

toodldo_4julie: What the what

---

Cleaning up my list of accounts and rediscovered Vent. Hello, Vent.



Updates -



I hate Trump.



In other news:

I hate Mike Pence.



Really... just about the whole administration.

Anywho. The kiddo is 6, now. We moved back to PA stomping grounds. I have been in school one way or another since 2012 and I am about to go back: Nurse practitioner is next on the agenda. Been a practicing nurse (see what I did, just there?) since 2015 and I exhaust myself with it. It will be nice to make more and have a better schedule while gaining the capability to diagnose/prescribe/treat.

toodldo_4julie: Music

---

So Christmas included a Blu Ray version of Nightwish: Showtime, Storytime. I like Floor Jansen.. I think she takes some of the better aspects of both former vocalists and bundles them up in one package. I hope she sticks around.

toodldo_4julie: Frodo and hobbit feet

---

Considering how much these little people move I was lucky to snap any photos at all. Pretty sure Elijah Wood was cast prematurely as Ryden is quite obviously the better hobbit.








Speaking of hobbits, I am not at all displeased that they have slated 3 films to cover The Hobbit (and LotR appendices). Perhaps my love of this literary world has clouded my vision somewhat. I did not think Jackson bombed the first of the three, either. It has been quite some time since I read The Hobbit - school keeps me busy - but I felt satisfied with the first film's storyline. I have yet to take a final stand on the newly created character, Tauriel, but I have high hopes that they have created a character that comes across like one of Tolkien's own.


Desolation of Smaug to follow An Unexpected Journey. I think the titles are fitting, as well.


mood: nerdy.