toodldo_4julie: all tuckered out

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well, i spent the last 2.5 days w/ my best s.c. friend, lacy. it was so awesome, being able to kick back w/ someone that never judges me for my oddities, and that is just what i need. :D

spending hours going back and forth between 9 animals is quite interesting, something not to be done when tired. :P especially if 4 of the 9 are hyper-active dogs...that are all about knee-high. um..yeah. lol.

I GOT THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING, THE EXTENDED EDITION.

i'm used to moving away, and never going back, except to visit from time to time, and i've done that several times. i'm not used to this whole going away to college, then coming home, then going back, then going home..it's like i'm in a joint custody battle. and i still have my friends in va..so i'm starting to freak out.. because i go one place, i miss these people, and so on. :( it's rather unsettling...
all i can say for certain is that i definately miss certain people, and even people that i don't exactly know, i miss talking to them everyday.

one never really notices how dependant upon AIM one can become... until one realizes that they can't be online all the time to talk to the people one would like to talk to/cares about. *sigh*



Mood: unsettled, happy-tired, yet sad
Music: my computer w/ it's music is at school!!!

toodldo_4julie: at home

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i'm home..

it's ok...much more busy than i'd have wanted it to be... but that's ok..

i'll probably work most of the second half of break.

the horses may not be actually gone, a friend and i are going to head up to the stable and see wtf is going on.

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too much to do and too little time.... aaaahhhhh


Mood: stretched
Music: the beatles - Day Tripper

toodldo_4julie: home

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going home tonight... i don't really want to. :

there are three things that i'm going home for... my dad, my friends, and work. if it wasn't for them, i wouldn't go home to state college :(

the horses won't be there...that was most important thing that was only at state college. my friends aren't all at state college, and if my dad wasn't in state college, i'd probably not go home other than just to visit the friends that are there. work can always be found elsewhere. *sigh*

i had a thought the other day. maybe life should just be a bunch of movies all grouped together, and some people get the good comedies, and some get the horror movies, and some get the chick flicks, and some get the really depressing films. if lives were films, we could rewrite the scripts, and change what we don't like. if we change the scripts in this life, it messes up the whole life half the time, and that's dangerous. but movie scripts are always being revised and such, so it wouldn't have as many bad effects as changing lives around would.

tip: don't step on a stack of papers that are upside down if they're stapled, and the little prongs are sticking up in the air. i did so yesterday, and it's not a pleasant feeling..


Mood: sad but intrigued
Music: no music, watching moulin rouge..
Browsing: aww shucks...

toodldo_4julie:

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the one thing that's been a constant in my life over the past two years is now gone. the last thing i had that i looked forward to so much is gone. because stupid people do stupid things, now the stable's breaking apart.

i'll never ride Buddy or Micah or Cool or Jack or Toby or Dusty or Magnum or Seymour or Timmy or Lady EVER AGAIN.

i don't think i've been this depressed, through all the emotional stress and every conflict i've had w/ people since i got to college. this upsets me more than i can possibly say, and i think maybe this is just a sign that LIFE EFFING SUCKS... and i wish i'd NEVER been BORN.


Mood: beyond depressed...
Music: loving the alien - velvet revolver

toodldo_4julie: snow

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i stayed up all night, and played in the snow w/ two friends. it was fun. i think i needed that.

oh, and snowball fights generally don't work out well if your gloves don't let go of the snow when you try to throw the balls... :P

and hot chocolate tastes really good after a couple hours in the snow...starting at 3:30 a.m., and snowplaying until 5 or so.. :P

and everything seems ridiculously funny when there is no sleep... things like people falling down snow-covered hills on their faces (one of the friends was sledding down a steep hill, and the laundry basket-yes, we were sledding in an old laundry basket- tipped..hehehe) and things like the echo of our voices as we laughed in the cafeteria at breakfast.. when there were only like, 8 other people in there eating ;)




Mood: giddy (probably exhausted, just don't know it yet)
Music: the roomie's asleep, and i can't sit still enough to wear headphones
Browsing: like i'd browse a link.. phhbt. :D