toodldo_4julie: OMG

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i was exiting the bathroom, and the door didn't close properly when i pulled it as i walked out.. i was like, huh? then all of a sudden, my ring finger was on fire, and i realized that the door had swung its heavy bulk shut to bounce back off of the base of my fingernail, on the cuticle. needless to say, it scraped all the skin in that area off, and shoved my fingernail. and bled. and hurt like a fricker. and it is throbbing now. ouchy. :(

it hurts. :( i dislike pain associated with my fingers. i need those fingers for everything i do! *sigh* and i'm typing w/ one hand now, which is a pain in the ass that is taking forever..


Mood: MAY ALL HEAVY DOORS ROT IN WHATEVER HELL THEY BELIEVE (OR DON'T BELIEVE IN SINCE THEY'RE NOT ALIVE) IN AND DWELL IN ENDLESS AND ETERNAL TORMENT!
Music: velvet revolver - illegal i song

toodldo_4julie: *smiles*

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heh.. right now there are 4 people sleeping in my room. 5 if you count me cuz i'm not really awake yet.. lol. it's rather amusing, the variety of people. i like watching people, studying them after a fashion.

people fascinate me.

as for life lately... "Everything's going so well!"

i have reached the exact state of mind that i wish to be in. it is a very good feeling to know where i want to be in life and to actually get there. *sigh* <--good sigh

i accidentally shaved my fingernail the other day when i was in the shower. the razor slipped. it's sort of a half moon shape. pretty annoying. and stings like hell. oh well. the worst part was that it didn't bleed. *shakes head*

I got rhythm, I got music
I got my man, who could ask for anything more
I got daisies in green pastures
I got my man, who could ask for anything more

Old Man Trouble, I don't mind him
You won't find him 'round my door
I got starlight, I got sweet dreams
I got my man, who could ask for anything more
Who could ask for anything more

Days can be sunny, with never a sigh
Don't need what money can buy
Birds in the tree sing their day full of song
Why shouldn't we sing along
I'm chipper all the day, happy with my lot
How do I get that way, look at what I've got




Mood: see above.. chipper!
Music: also see above

toodldo_4julie:

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it's like a fricking blizzard over here at dennis' place!! ack! i love snow, i really do.. especially when i'm barefoot in it.. but still.. it's april already, for chrissake!!! oh my ...


i've made several plans for my move. i cannot wait to begin this upcoming chapter in my life.


dennis found perfect dark for N-64 on ebay, so we ordered it and it was here in less than a week! woot! i used to play it all the time, forgot how much i enjoyed it! :D hehehe


i had a dream about a character i've recently been introduced to in a story. it was a thoroughly fascinating dream! ;) and a certain layered voice....


Mood: wide awake
Music: flogging molly - salty dog

toodldo_4julie: i plan on getting out of my corner

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college can kiss my ass, i'm moving back to virginia and dennis is moving with me. yay for a new life and moving on.

i have a job waiting for me, and a best friend and a place to live.

i wonder why it took me so long to realize that i was never meant to be in college. that's the normal and socially accepted thing to do.. but then again, i never do that shit. so why did i try now? i don't know... maybe i wanted to try to be normal for once. do what everyone else does. i wonder.

some things are not meant to be. i'm not meant to be here.

so VA and happy times here i come, i'm leaving this hellhole behind.

i'll miss a few things, true. but not college.

i can't wait till summer.


Mood: determined and enlightened
Music: no music, watching Buffy

toodldo_4julie: i hate how when you edit a post the time and date changes

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did you ever happen to walk by something/one from your past and almost say hi or stop to look then remember yourself and walk hurriedly by while wondering if you had said hi or stopped to look what would have happened?


i wonder sometimes. it's fascinating to me.


my life is looking incredibly straight up now, because of my best friends and Dennis, even though my grades are not that good.. the only thing in my life now that i feel like is missing is someone to connect to on certain levels that no one seems to understand me on. i miss having someone to discuss the complexities of music with, or to want to go to taco bell at 10:30 before they close, or to be comfortable enough around to just sit and listen to music or play a video game and not really need to talk for long periods of time, other than my male counterpart (i really dislike the term 'boyfriend'---sounds very highschoolish) . i've had maybe two friends of this exact kind in my life. one was years ago. one was more recent.


i am perfectly content where i am, i've found a real love, i've got some of the best friends i've ever had, i have a fucking awesome roommate, when i go home i get to ride again, i have a wonderful workplace to go home to for the summer, two of my best friends are getting married this summer, and i get to go to the beach with my dad and an awesome friend, if i don't flunk this semester out i get to live with someone awesome next year, i might get to move in with dennis next summer, i'm going to be getting a car in about a year, my cat is a sweetheart, i've been saving and getting john frusciante's albums, and the things that matter most to me are not letting me down. life for me is at a high, and it's wonderful! but.... sometimes i look back, not with regret, i think everything that happens happens for a reason, but with nostalgia, and almost homesick thoughts. i really miss some aspects of my life... i guess some things just come and go in our lives.


i hate what if's.


but sometimes they're so tempting.

i'm glad i have what i do have in my life. it makes it all worthwhile to be in love with someone that loves you back.

all quite fascinating.

I AM THE PICKLE!!!!




Mood: happy to be where i am in life.
Music: red hot chili peppers - midnight