Beowulf: other post didn't make sense
I decided since I'm still not tired and my other post didn't have any real content, I should throw something on here with a bit of soul or something. Everyone else on here seems to keep people informed on their lives, perhaps I should too.
Welp, I attend a school every day that is not much more than a glorified expensive day care where they force me to do work I don't want to do and listen to people who are barely qualified to teach their classes. All for a stupid peice of paper so I can leave this town.
I've got five really close friends, a couple of friends that are good people, but I don't share a lot with them, and a nice group of people that are fun to be around sometimes but I can't handle them all the time. Of my five close friends, two ran off to the military. These two are like my bestest best friend type people. Their leaving was good for them, and I'm glad they did it. However, it left me feeling a bit alone. Again, of those five, after this semester one is moving away to be with Aaron in the marines (one of the two mentioned previously. That takes me down to two that are still close to here. One of those two is debating a five month trip to study in Europe knocking me down to one. And finally, to top it all off, this one is wrestling with the idea of going to the East coast to be with his girlfriend. hmm, if you followed all that, I am left with no close friends still around here.
It's not that I don't want them to go. I do. It's good for them and it's what they want to do so they should do it. I want them to do what makes them happy. But it does leave me feeling a bit alone and kinda sorrowful that I can't get out of here like they did. I'm pretty much bound to this area until I finish college.
It's really hard to describe the ambivalence I feel in this situation. Being alone isn't bad. I almost revel in my solitude from time to time. But there is always those moments when I want one or several of them just to be here. To have them close so i know that if I need them they're close at hand. but I never really need them. Dangit, being human sux.
oh well, such is life. Carpe Diem baby!!
(Ed: fixed the link there, sorry about goofing up the time as well)
Mood: danm I want to sleep
Music: none yet
Browsing: look something interesting up.
I decided since I'm still not tired and my other post didn't have any real content, I should throw something on here with a bit of soul or something. Everyone else on here seems to keep people informed on their lives, perhaps I should too.
Welp, I attend a school every day that is not much more than a glorified expensive day care where they force me to do work I don't want to do and listen to people who are barely qualified to teach their classes. All for a stupid peice of paper so I can leave this town.
I've got five really close friends, a couple of friends that are good people, but I don't share a lot with them, and a nice group of people that are fun to be around sometimes but I can't handle them all the time. Of my five close friends, two ran off to the military. These two are like my bestest best friend type people. Their leaving was good for them, and I'm glad they did it. However, it left me feeling a bit alone. Again, of those five, after this semester one is moving away to be with Aaron in the marines (one of the two mentioned previously. That takes me down to two that are still close to here. One of those two is debating a five month trip to study in Europe knocking me down to one. And finally, to top it all off, this one is wrestling with the idea of going to the East coast to be with his girlfriend. hmm, if you followed all that, I am left with no close friends still around here.
It's not that I don't want them to go. I do. It's good for them and it's what they want to do so they should do it. I want them to do what makes them happy. But it does leave me feeling a bit alone and kinda sorrowful that I can't get out of here like they did. I'm pretty much bound to this area until I finish college.
It's really hard to describe the ambivalence I feel in this situation. Being alone isn't bad. I almost revel in my solitude from time to time. But there is always those moments when I want one or several of them just to be here. To have them close so i know that if I need them they're close at hand. but I never really need them. Dangit, being human sux.
oh well, such is life. Carpe Diem baby!!
(Ed: fixed the link there, sorry about goofing up the time as well)
Mood: danm I want to sleep
Music: none yet
Browsing: look something interesting up.
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-Veggietales
who's going to see Aaron?
i'll always love you bubba:)